Saw my momma on the porch

the wind was warm, the air was heavy

with words we hadn’t said

And things we haven’t done

months have passed by but you still keep your head held high

I guess I’ve never really known you

Why you keep things close to your chest

Ive watched it tear you apart

but you never want to talk about it

and I’ve grown tired of it

I can never really hold you

when you’re nothing more than a stranger

Maybe down the line you can show me how to love you

You’ve never really reached out

I watched you from afar

As you tried to put things back together

and love a man that treated you so badly

I wish that I could say it was all right

when all I really want is to feel you near

I cant really breathe when you’re

crushing up my lungs

I can never really hold you

when you’re nothing more than a stranger

Maybe down the line you can show me how to love you

Saw my momma, on the porch across the street

the wind was warm, the air was heavy

Momma, dear, I hope that you can love me.

Days After

Sometimes I feel

like you planned this

drove all this way to catch my attention

Bet you told your friends right after

Did you think I would not notice

all of your intentions

Now I lay wide awake

thinking about a boy with brown eyes

Hoping that he’d come back

I think we both know

this can only happen one time

Now you’ve got my attention

Things seem to happen this way

I always get tossed away

Bet you have other ones too

Did you think I was just like them

know me from just a picture

Now I’m laying wide awake

Thinking ’bout your brown eyes

Hoping that you’d come back

I think we both know

It was only meant to happen this time


Floating on a rug made of old paintings

It’s better than the first time

Always in the cloud

I hope I make it out and find

The image of the girl you drowned

All the old paintings, I hope he retained them.


For you, I found comfort in the shadows

Needlessly giving up to the light

You didn’t want to follow

So I took flight

Cut off my hair

Escaped to a place where the shadows

No longer brought comfort

I had already given everything

In fact, you’re already dead.

What ghastly arms you have 

To hold yourself up with 

The girls tries desperately

Her soul wanders on restlessly

Leaving her body, where they cause harm

Ahead the miles stretch 

The soul swirls into the fruition 

Of a Tricksters moment of acquisition

Oblivion, his knifes edge

Slow, slow

Remember the body 

It drowns, and drowns and drowns

Resting, on a bloody underbody 

What ghastly arms I have

To hold myself up with

Cessation occurs 

And I fall, into the abyss. 

Ongoing today

I feel so empty 

Sometimes I’m happy

But it never lasts long

With rope burns on my neck

Raise with me your hand 

My intent for your forgiveness

This life is a mine field

And I never step 

In the right place 

Oh lord I need some drugs

Oh lord I need some drugs

I want to try 

And be better 

So I can ease my heart at night 

Lord I feel so empty

my mind always escapes

To places I cannot reach

Without my permission

I need to learn

How to stop drowning

When I know how to swim

Take Away

When I showed you the book

I must have left it inside

The image of the girl you wanted

I guess it was like that

Take what you want

And hope I make it out 

I can wait 

Just let me know 

I’ll keep existing 

In a blind like state

Constantly checking 

For things to break 

My heart 

Oh I guess I could be 

What you want

But if I try 

I might sink down 

To someplace I cannot see

And I’ll still be cold 

I’ll take what I want 

I could never love you

When you’re so cruel

It hit me in the stomach

Take what you want away 

Take half of my heart away

It’s just life dear

It’s easier to hurt 

When there’s nothing to mourn

I can still be what you want 

But it wouldn’t be me