Peine d’amour

I am floating

Tumbling around 

Empty space 

As my body contorts 

Reaching for something 

To cling onto,

My mind 

Reverts to you

Playing the samples

Of your voice inside my head.

I swear I hear your laughter

Deep and hearty 

I close my eyes and picture 

The shape of you’re bare head 

Your bristling cheeks

As my hand moves down your jawline

I twist my body around

As if my chest was to your chest

And let out a breathless gasp

As I remember the feeling

Of your hand spanning the side of my hip

All those nights ago 

When we were alone

In the bed of your truck

Far off in the distance

I feel the weight of nothingness

Begin to collapse my chest

My eyelids feel heavy

Sleepily resisting my 


To see the darkness

My mind begins to slip

And with it

The warmth of your body

And the thumps inside my chest

A last spasm 

There goes my heart.

For the Guy Who Kept Leaving Me on Read

I’m not feeling

Come to find my breathing

Is impaired

I’m not feeling

What you want me to

And I’m scared

You find yourself crying

Redirecting pain

Into his arms again, into his arms again

Well, I’ve got a message

Got a message for him

A message he read

and left on his bed

Well, I’ve got a message

A message for him

A message he’ll read

You’re not in my head.


For you, I found comfort in the shadows

Needlessly giving up to the light

You didn’t want to follow

So I took flight

Cut off my hair

Escaped to a place where the shadows

No longer brought comfort

I had already given everything