Peine d’amour

I am floating

Tumbling around 

Empty space 

As my body contorts 

Reaching for something 

To cling onto,

My mind 

Reverts to you

Playing the samples

Of your voice inside my head.

I swear I hear your laughter

Deep and hearty 

I close my eyes and picture 

The shape of you’re bare head 

Your bristling cheeks

As my hand moves down your jawline

I twist my body around

As if my chest was to your chest

And let out a breathless gasp

As I remember the feeling

Of your hand spanning the side of my hip

All those nights ago 

When we were alone

In the bed of your truck

Far off in the distance

I feel the weight of nothingness

Begin to collapse my chest

My eyelids feel heavy

Sleepily resisting my 

Effort

To see the darkness

My mind begins to slip

And with it

The warmth of your body

And the thumps inside my chest

A last spasm 

There goes my heart.

Days After

Sometimes I feel

like you planned this

drove all this way to catch my attention

Bet you told your friends right after

Did you think I would not notice

all of your intentions

Now I lay wide awake

thinking about a boy with brown eyes

Hoping that he’d come back

I think we both know

this can only happen one time

Now you’ve got my attention

Things seem to happen this way

I always get tossed away

Bet you have other ones too

Did you think I was just like them

know me from just a picture

Now I’m laying wide awake

Thinking ’bout your brown eyes

Hoping that you’d come back

I think we both know

It was only meant to happen this time